Goodbye

A major part of Army life, is spent saying goodbye.

First, you say goodbye to your family as you make your move around the world to be with your soldier. Then you say goodbye to your soldier as he continues around the world without you. Then ultimately you say goodbye to the friendships and people whom you coveted while in his absense and beyond.

In my last 15 years, I have said goodbye to some pretty special people. Because of my personality, I am typically slow to make new female friends. I've always been more of a guys girl, than one of the girls. But living this live, adjustments must be made. So when we find those people, you tend to want to hang on.

But sometimes, you just have to accept the inevitable. Things change, people leave, and the cycle starts all over.

We like to believe that it gets better each time. But maybe we just get better at hiding it. I'm used to having a friend go here and there. Although it can hurt you can deal with it. This time I feel like everybody is jumping off the Titanic and I'm sitting with the band.

Within less than 1 months time, from the infamous Zoo Troop we've lost Hotlips "our fearless FRG leader", and Scrappy "our don't make me kick your ass" ballerina. Then I'm losing, 3 of my immediate neighbors and good friends. (the ones I actually like, lol). These women have been my sounding board for many issues over the past year. When I lost my health, when I temporarily lost my soldier, and when I nearly lost my mind. So losing them, I can to tell you it hurts.

Since the redeployment, you can feel most of those friendships, pulling away. Granted its understandable. We build friendships to fill voids from our soldiers deployments. So when they return, friendships have a tendency to get put on the back burner. Not on purpose, and definitely not because thats what one wants. It just is what it is.

The purpose of today's blog, is simple. I just need a chance to say goodbye. Everybody is going in different directions, at this point its doubtful that our paths will ever cross again. So I will miss you, each and every one. You've brought something to my life that I didn't know how much I needed, until it was taken away.